Life's a trip, man...

 Man, life is such a trip. When I was younger and growing up, I had a pretty short-fused temper. This wasn’t like an anytime, anyplace type of temper. As far as I can remember it generally happened only in my house and around immediate family members(I couldn’t let everyone know that I was crazy). I guess only the people closest to me were able to poke the right buttons. Anyways, as I got older, I began to realize that all my temper did was embarrass and make people afraid of me. So when I left for college I really wanted to change that aspect of myself. I mostly just hated the fact that other people could have so much control over me and my emotions.

Now I’m not sure if this just correlated with the fact that I wasn’t around immediate family members or not over the next few years, but I felt like I was really improving. I honestly eventually got to a point where I felt like I had turned my quick tempered weakness into a calm mannered strength. I mean there were still times where I got hot, but it was very few and far between and only around my closest friends I would say.

Fast forward to marriage and I have been seriously exposed. If I ever had the thought that I had conquered the anger beast inside, I was very wrong. Lol Turns out, much like most things I’ve learned in life, it’s a never ending battle. I just never realized I still had so many triggers until I allowed someone so closely into my life. And this is coming from someone who went on an LDS mission and couldn’t leave the sight of another person for 2 straight years. Marriage is a unique playing field of endless opportunities for personal growth if you’re willing to see it that way. And hopefully each side is patient enough to allow the other to work through these opportunities; not always easy… ask my wifey. :) 

And then, just when you start to think, “Wow, I think I’m really beginning to get the hang of this whole marriage thing..,” BOOM! You have a child…or 2…or 3… Talk about a trigger overload and a trip right back to the starting line of improving those weaknesses we thought we had once again corralled. 

Life’s a trip, man. But it’s great. Endless opportunities for growth as long as we’re willing to see and approach it that way. Just when we think we’ve got it figured out, another curveball is coming to push us out of our comfort zone. Depending on your belief in a higher power, I think it’s pretty cool that there’s something or someone out there that cares enough about us to make life’s journey an endless road to self-improvement for each of us. Anytime we’re conquering life’s battles, even as “mundane” as marriage and kids, we’re simultaneously conquering our inner beasts as well. Pretty cool.

Anyways, hope your all doing great and have a dope weekend.

PEACEEE